Capture Your Grief Day 21: Nourish

I have been trying to write this post for like, three weeks now, and I honestly don't know what to say for it. Dr. Teal's Soothe and Nourish is my favorite bubble bath, and I have been taking a lot of baths lately. I have also been taking a lot of time off work to nourish my soul, and I feel like it has done good things for me. I guess the point of this prompt would be to take care of...

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Capture Your Grief Day 18: The Grief Shift

There is not one day when your grief magically shifts from heavy and unbearable to light and manageable. It just doesn't happen. Grief shifts back and forth whenever it pleases, and pays no attention to the things you want. You could pay your grief a million dollars to do what you wanted, and it would simply take your money and run. Grief is a dirty, sneaky player in the game...

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Capture Your Grief Day 17: Make Believe

Some days it feels like it was all pretend. Like we set up the nursery just for fun. That my stomach got bigger just because it could. That we didn't actually go to the hospital and deliver a baby. It's like I made it all up.

I understand why women have more than one baby, even after feeling like their body is torn in...

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Capture Your Grief Day 16: Conscious Gratitude

Losing our babies has made me more aware of the things I am thankful for. There are a million things that Brandon does for me that I could list, and so many people I could go on and on about. But since last year, I have noticed myself feeling more grateful for the little things. The sharp, winter air that renewed me on bad days last December. The little moments that Brandon...

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Capture Your Grief Day 15: Wave of Light

I wanted to give everyone some background on what Wave of Light is, since I did not know what it was until doing some research. October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, with the actual remembrance day on October 15th. The idea behind Wave of Light is that, on October 15th, loss families, friends, and loved ones will light a candle, lantern, or anything of the sort at...

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Capture Your Grief Day 14: Secret Act of Kindness

It's not so secret, but for each child that gets buried near Carter, we do something special. After we see the child's name, we go to the store, pick out a journal specifically for that family, and leave a note explaining who we are. I always leave my email address and phone number, and tell the parents that they are welcome to reach out when/if they feel like doing so. I...

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