Full Circle

February 22, 2019 by Caitlin Robbins in Motherhood, Loss

Today I took Hudson to a baby story time at the library. It was our first time going to story time, but not our first time at this library; we had…

Things You Can Say

October 25, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I want to preface this post by saying that this post is not solely about me. This is about other loss parents too, and is just something I feel like could be helpful for people who aren’t sure about how to handle the…

Another Milestone

July 26, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

A year ago today we found out we were pregnant for the third time. It came as a surprise during an ultrasound to check on an ovarian cyst. We were six weeks. It was exactly 39 weeks after we found out we had lost…

What is My Grief?

March 22, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I was working on my prompt for this week's 52 List (roadblocks to my happiness), and it made me pause and think about a question that we received during our live stream on Sunday. Someone asked if we ever get annoyed with...

When People Forget

March 09, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I wrote a post last year (well, numerous posts) about how I was terrified of the day that people no longer remembered Carter. Many months and two additional losses later, I had so much more to be afraid of. But now, it seems that day has finally...

Get Ready

February 02, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss, Pregnancy

I feel like a common thing for people to say to parents expecting a baby is "just wait" or "get ready for...". I understand it, but I also wonder if those people just forget that these parents obviously feel ready...

On Donation Day

December 12, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Featured, Flying For Time

As you may have read, I had a lot of feelings leading up to the donation of the CuddleCot. As bad as it sounds, a large amount of those feelings was relief that the cot had finally arrived and that we had found someone that wanted it. I was just ready to give it to the hospital so it could...

13 Months Later

November 29, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle

Enough time has passed since we lost Carter that I have stopped counting weeks. Once we passed 39 weeks, it didn't seem to matter much anymore. I just knew that time kept going. Today, November 27, I know that it has been 52 and a few weeks. I'm not sure how many, and...

Let's Talk About This Stupid Study

November 21, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle

A new study has been published recently that essentially says that if a pregnant women falls asleep on her back in the third trimester, the risk of delivering a stillborn baby doubles. The study also says "What we don’t want is for moms to wake up and see their on their back and think, 'I’ve done something terrible to my baby.'" But I don't think the researchers...