he past week and a half have been absolute garbage. All last week, I just kept thinking about how it should have been my last week of work. How we should have been prepping to bring home our little girl. But here we are. No baby. Not even pregnant. Not bringing home a daughter...
Read MoreLosing our son was the single worst experience of my entire life. Losing our daughter was a little easier. Miscarrying our third seemed almost routine. They have all been hard, but with each loss, I’ve also lost more and more of my hope and optimism. My motto of “keep moving forward” is getting harder and harder to follow. It gets harder every day to believe that I may...
Read MoreDwelling on this doesn't change anything, I know that. It doesn't make it better. I'm just having a hard day. With Carter's birthday coming up, and the date we had anticipated having little bean...it's just a lot to handle, especially on a Monday with little sleep.
Isn't it strange how much you can miss someone you barely even knew?
Read MoreLast Friday morning, I was finally able to talk with the people that will be supplying the CuddleCot. They are located in Florida, and have been without internet for a while due to the hurricane. But we finally connected, and the ball is rolling, people!! We have paid for the CuddleCot, and the order was placed yesterday! Generally, the cots take about two weeks to...
Read MoreThis past weekend was a nice one! Friday night we watched Utah State beat BYU, then Saturday we drove up to Logan to see the babies and go to a baby shower. The colors in Sardine Canyon were so pretty! On the drive home, Brandon mentioned a drive called the Alpine Loop that he had heard about. We did that on Sunday and it made Sardine Canyon look...
Read MoreExciting news!!! We are almost 1/3 of the way to being able to donate a second CuddleCot!! You guys were so awesome, and helped us reach our first goal in under a week. As you may know, October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month. To do our part in raising awareness, we are hoping to raise enough money for the second CuddleCot by the end of the month. To help us achieve that goal, (and this is the exciting part) we have ordered some new products! We have Origami Paper Airplane Necklaces, and if you aren't a necklace person, Paper Airplane Bracelets! Each piece comes in gold or silver, and are $15.00. We only have thirty of each in stock (of course, we'll order more when we run out) so order yours now ! Click here to shop!
We will be getting one more item in very soon! This one is my personal favorite, so I can't wait to share it with you guys!
Thank you again for all your support so far. We appreciate all the donations and purchases that have been made so far. If you are unable to donate or buy a necklace, then thank you for spreading the word! Awareness of our cause is payment enough. Thank you again!
It's very obvious that our life is sort of torn in two 100% of the time. It is very easy to be both sad and okay at the same time, but I don't think that is something that everyone understands. Lately, I've been feeling like this blog is very polarized. Some days I talk about my grief, and other days I'm talking happily about Disney. A few months ago, Brandon suggested starting a different blog solely for the heavier posts, and I was really adamant that I didn't want to separate them. Grief is a big part of our lives, and I almost feel like it would be a disservice to ourselves to try and hide it, or give it a more "appropriate" place. I can tell you for a fact that grief has literally zero understanding of "appropriate" when it comes to timing or placement.
I started Freckle Eye Fancy with the intentions of having it be a lifestyle blog. In our lives, lifestyle includes food, travel, home decor, daily life, and essentially whatever else I feel like talking about. Some day I hope to be able to write about the children we have at home. But our current lifestyle also includes grief. While Carter and Little Bean would absolutely be mentioned on here, breaking off with a different blog would mean that Freckle Eye Fancy becomes a lighter representation of our every day life.
Some people are here for the grief, and some people probably get tired of it. I want your opinion on what you think would be best for the blog, and then get ready to see some changes. What do you want to see from me/us? Thank you in advance!
I meant to type this up and post it yesterday, but we have been so busy between the blog, vlog, and Flying for Time that spare moments have been in rare supply!
We wanted to say thank you to everyone who has donated to Flying for Time. We met our goal in under a week, and have continued to see more orders rolling in each day. Our primary goal was to donate one CuddleCot, and now our secondary goal is to donate another! We are still in the process of getting the actual CuddleCot (why don't people respond to emails fast enough?!) but are excited to posting some new items that will help purchase the next one.
Thank you again to everyone, we never be able to tell you how much we appreciate your support! Even if you weren't able to donate or purchase a necklace, your words of encouragement mean so much to us. Thank you!!
