Eighteen Months

April 27, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

Eighteen months ago our lives changed forever.

Eighteen months ago we got to meet our sweet little boy. We got to hold his tiny body, kiss his sweet face, and just ogle over the perfect child we…

Adults Are Tired

April 20, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I've talked multiple times on here and on the vlog about how I have had so many stressful dreams during this pregnancy. Lately the dreams have been less terrifying and just stressful, and they've even started to limit themselves to just a...

What is My Grief?

March 22, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I was working on my prompt for this week's 52 List (roadblocks to my happiness), and it made me pause and think about a question that we received during our live stream on Sunday. Someone asked if we ever get annoyed with...

When People Forget

March 09, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I wrote a post last year (well, numerous posts) about how I was terrified of the day that people no longer remembered Carter. Many months and two additional losses later, I had so much more to be afraid of. But now, it seems that day has finally...

Get Ready

February 02, 2018 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss, Pregnancy

I feel like a common thing for people to say to parents expecting a baby is "just wait" or "get ready for...". I understand it, but I also wonder if those people just forget that these parents obviously feel ready...

CARTER'S FIRST BIRTHDAY

November 01, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

We are finally back to real blog posts! As much as I kind of didn't enjoy the Capture Your Grief project, it was really nice to have all the posts scheduled out so I didn't have to worry about writing a ton. We were gone for five days on our trip to New England, then I had to take two days off last week because I was sick, and we took Carter's birthday off. There hasn't been

A Different Kind of Year

October 27, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

Today is our son’s first birthday.

For a first-time mother, that seems like a strange thing to say. With each passing year, our own age shows that we are getting older. That we have more experiences and more life behind us than the year before. Then we have children, and we have one more number to count our lives...

365 Days

October 27, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

Today is my son’s first birthday. I don’t know how many times I am going to say that today, but I have a feeling it will be a lot.

It blows my mind how quickly this year has passed. I remember thinking that my pregnancy went quickly, but I had no idea that the year following would go even faster. The first three...

A Letter to Carter

October 26, 2017 by Caitlin Robbins in Lifestyle, Loss

I wrote this letter to Carter a few days before we buried him. My dad read it out loud at the service, and then the letter was left at the cemetery with him. I tried to sum up our 39 weeks together in one simple letter, but there are not enough words to justify how much that time...