Hi Little Bean: May 8 & 10, 2017

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May 8, 2017

Hi baby H,

I started feeling really brave this weekend about welcoming you into the world. Looking at boy things is still a little hard, so I mostly looked at girl things yesterday, but I felt like it was a pretty big step. I looked at crib sheets, and a few outfits, and I was even okay to flip through the small Carter’s catalog that came to our house. If you are a boy, then I will eventually be okay to look at boy things, but maybe not right away. There are lots of fun girl things for if you are a girl, though!

I can’t believe we find out in at most nine days whether you are a little boy or girl. I know we were planning to wait until we were seventeen weeks, which would mean we’d still have 21 days, but that’s hardly anything! We leave for Disney World in 17 days, and then we get to announce you to the world! I’m so excited to go on a vacation with just your dad, and to take you on your first Disney trip! We’ll do all sorts of fun things and eat all the best food, since I can’t go on any of the big rides.

Little bean, we love you so much! I will do my best to keep you safe. We’ll see you soon!

 

May 10, 2017

Oh little bean.

Let me tell you all of the excitement we’ve had in the past 48 hours.  When I woke up yesterday morning, I stood up to go to the bathroom, and felt some liquid go into my underwear. It felt like kind of a lot, so I woke up your dad and told him we needed to go to the emergency room. We went, and waited for a million, trillion years, and finally got an ultrasound, where they said your fluid levels looked good, and we concluded that basically I had just peed a little. Welcome to pregnancy. It’s magical.

After I got back to the room, the doctor came in with the nurses and said you looked fine for now, but that there was something else they needed to tell us. They said that you have cystic hygroma, which (we were told yesterday) was abnormal growth on the brain, that may or may not be fatal. So essentially, there was a good chance we would lose you at some point. I went home kind of disbelief, but not the same kind of disbelief I had when we lost your brother. Yesterday it was more of, no, that doesn’t feel right, the baby is fine. I just didn’t feel like there was anything wrong, whereas with Carter, I think we kind of knew the whole time that it wasn’t going to end well.

I did a really good thing and stayed off google all day. I came to work, didn’t focus on it too much, and then had daddy’s friend from work come give me a blessing. But I was kind of terrified, because in the ER I had asked the doctor, does the baby have it, or is it just that the baby may have it, and he said that you for sure did. He talked to Dr. Chavez, who said he wanted to see me today, so I called and made an appointment for this morning. It was a long night and morning, waiting to see the doctor, but I’m so glad we were able to get in early this morning.

This guy is a saint, baby H, let me tell you.

The first thing he said when he came in was that he almost called me to see how I was doing. That’s a big deal. Not a lot of doctors would care so much to call their patients on the day they aren’t in the office. Next, he asked what the ER doctor had told us, and told us that what the guy said was not entirely accurate. It’s not a growth on the brain, it is abnormal swelling of the lymphatic system, and it’s not always fatal. It can be, but it can also be a sign of Down Syndrome, Turner Syndrome, or some other syndrome. The only way we will know if it is a syndrome is by waiting to get our genetic test results back, which should hopefully be within the next week. If the test results do show something, then we will just have to go from there. If they don’t, he’ll send us to a specialist for an ultrasound, and see what they can find.

Dr. Chavez said he was very frustrated with the report the radiologist sent in. The radiologist didn’t specify where the abnormality was, or how big it was, only that it was there. He was frustrated, because we just had an ultrasound a week ago, and he didn’t see anything abnormal then, so whatever the radiologist saw should have been laid out more clearly, rather than just saying that you have cystic hygroma and leaving it at that. I (conveniently) drank 32 ounces of water 45 minutes before the appointment and didn’t use the bathroom, so we asked him if he wanted to do an ultrasound, and he said yes. He took us in and started looking, and still seemed frustrated. Finally, he said “so if I’m really looking for it, I could see how they would think this little fluid buildup could be something. It’s a stretch, but I could seem them thinking that was something.” He measured it, and it only measured about 1 centimeter, which is good. If it is really a cystic hygroma, and it was closer to 5 centimeters, then we would have to have a really hard conversation about what to do with you. If it is 2 or less, then there are other things that could be done or (if it’s not chromosomal) it could possibly go away. So I was happy that it wasn’t huge, but even happier that he kind of seemed to think the radiologist was off his rocker. He said multiple times that the radiologist is not a fetal radiologist, and is definitely not a high risk fetal radiologist, so there’s a chance the guy didn’t really know what he was talking about. He said, had Dr. Hutchison looked at the ultrasound and concluded that, he would have been more likely to believe it, but even then, Dr. Hutchison is the one who thought areas of Carter’s heart looked enlarged last year, and they weren’t.

Don’t get me wrong, little bean. I am still scared that this could end badly. I am absolutely terrified to lose you. If you have down syndrome, I don’t care! I just want you to be here and healthy so I can kiss your little face all over. But you and I had a lot of good talks before you got here (if you are who I think you are, anyway) and I don’t see this, the complications or any syndrome, in the cards for us. I just really don’t. I feel really good about you and this whole pregnancy, so I think it will be okay.

It has been an exciting few days, that’s for sure! But we are fourteen weeks pregnant today, and you are growing and moving so much! You are a wiggly little thing, just like your brother. I’m trying to eat healthy and exercise for your sake, but the doctor said to eat more ice cream, so I guess I just have to follow orders. We’re excited to get the test results back, so we can know if you are a little girl or boy, and to find out if we’ll be blessed with a different kind of parenthood (other than the different kind we are already living). Stay safe little bean, we love you so so much!!

How far along? : Fourteen weeks!!! So dang excited!!!
Baby is the size of: a peach!
Total weight gain/loss: Who cares!! But uh...still like four pounds. I definitely have a belly though..
Sleep: Sleep shmeep. Who needs it. Actually, me, that’s who. Not super tired, but not sleeping well still!
Best moment this week: Seeing you two times! You’re so wiggly and cute. And stubborn!! Roll over so we can see your face, for Pete’s sake!
Movement: Yes!! Just barely, but it’s so wonderful.
Symptoms: None, really. Still sensitive to all the smells, but that’s it!
Food cravings: Cookies and subway!
Food aversions: Anything super smelly
What I miss: Carter, working out hard, and having a naive and easy pregnancy.
What I am looking forward to: getting these dang test results back so we can know all the things!

Nursery reveal.

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A year ago this week, we set up the crib and dresser in Carter's room. We ordered some art for the walls, and hung up curtains that were the perfect shade of blue. I realized right after we lost him that I never shared pictures of his room. As we started thinking about a nursery for our little girl, I kind of had anxiety about redoing the nursery. The nursery has been my sanctuary since we lost him, and once that room changes, where would I go when I need to grieve? Unluckily, the nursery is still not changing for at least nine months. But I thought I should share pictures. It's pretty simple, but it's the most put together room in the house, besides the two picture frames that hold someone else's photos (and a baby, that one kills me). We have spent so much time in the nursery that it's honestly my very favorite room. I never would have imagined that it would sit empty for as long as it has, but I'm glad we have the space to honor our babies.

 

The changing pad used to sit on top of the dresser, covered with a gray background and white clouds. We put it away to make space for these boxes that hold special things for our babies.

When we are able to redo the nursery for another baby, I plan to move Brandon's drawing for Carter to a wall in our bedroom. 

 

The importance of flight.

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I wrote this post on our way home from Amsterdam, and still think about this day a lot. I'm so grateful for these little signs from our babies!

Being on vacation for a week was hard. It was super fun, don't get me wrong, but it was hard to be away from home and our boy for so long. I feel him the most at home, and that feeling fades just a little whenever I leave the house. After days of no routine, little sleep, and anxiety from just being outside my current comfort zone, I broke down. I just wanted to go home and be with him.

One night, while I laid in bed for hours trying to fall asleep, I asked to be given a sign that he was there with us. Actually, I kind of begged. I just needed something. The next day, there was nothing. I went back to the hotel sad, but still hoping that something would show up.

That night, I got the most sleep of the entire trip. The next afternoon, we were wandering around the Amsterdam City museum, learning about the history of the city, and saw this little beauty on the wall:

 
 

I didn't read the rest of the timeline, so I'm not sure why the Wright brothers were so crucial to the development of Amsterdam, but that was my sign. The last time I had given the Wright brothers any thought was at the air and space museum, which is where we found Carter's middle name, Mckay. Airplanes have played a far more significant role in his little life than I ever would have imagined! I just stood there, staring at the plane, and cried. It was such a special little gift to be given on a day I needed it most!

Fast forward twenty minutes later, when we were trying to find dinner, and I found a restaurant called Carter. We didn't go there, but it was still fun to see his name on my map! 

We sure do miss our little guy, but It's always nice to have these little signs pop up, or to hear that other people are thinking of him!

 

The Best Non-Alcoholic Drinks in Disney World.

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Before we left for Disney, I had the idea to do a drink tour. There are tons of posts online about drinking around the world at Epcot, and the best places to get beer at the parks, but we kind of had to sift through a lot of posts to compile a list of the best non-alcoholic drinks. I'm sure there are a ton more, but we had to alternate our specialty drinks with water (and obviously Mickey pretzels), so our list isn't extremely long. And sorry we didn't get a picture of every single drink (thanks to The Disney Food Blog for providing some of these!). I promise they are all worth it! If you know of any that aren't on this list, put them in the comments!

Magic Kingdom

Lefou's Brew - Gaston's Tavern (by Be Our Guest restaurant) : Tasty frozen apple juice (and a hint of marshmallow!) topped with passion fruit-mango foam. Enjoy it while you gaze with wonder at the antlers Gaston uses in all his decorating.

 

Dole Whip Float - Aloha Isle (Adventureland by the Magic Carpet Ride) : Pineapple soft serve in pineapple juice and it's so good. And a classic.

 

Epcot

The American Dream - Fire and Drum Tavern (America) : Honestly my favorite drink of the whole trip! Blue Raspberry slushie, soft serve vanilla ice cream, and Strawberry slushie layers will make you feel patriotic even when you're dying from the heat.

 

Kaki-Gori - Kabuki Cafe (Japan) : They might look like your typical shaved ice, but everything is better in Disney World! A variety of flavors and a sweet milk topping!

 

Animal Kingdom

Shangri La Berry Freeze - Warung Outpost (between Africa & Asia) : A strawberry smoothie that's fit for any animal (except don't really feed it to the animals, okay?).

 

Night Blossom - Pongu Pongu (Pandora) : A mixture of limeade with apple and pear, topped with Passion Fruit boba. The glowing Unadelta Seed is optional, but I recommend it just out of sheer coolness.

 

Hollywood Studios

PB&J Milkshake - 50's Prime Time Cafe (near Echo Lake) : It tastes just like the classic sandwich, but with ice cream, which makes it that much better. (And I'm really not kidding, it tastes just like it!!)

 

Wheezy's Breezy Freezy - Hey Howdy Hey Takeaway (near Toy Story Mania) : A frozen drink in your choice of Coke, Wild Cherry, Lemonade, or Watermelon. After standing in line for Toy Story Mania, you'll need one!

 
 
 
 

Hi Little Bean: May 3, 2017

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This post is from the day we did our blood draw to do genetic testing, and in turn, find out the gender. It was probably one of the happiest days I'd had since we found out we were pregnant again.

May 3, 2017

Little baby H,

I guess I can call you that now, because regardless of your gender, you are going to be baby H! That’s so crazy!! I’ll have to tell your daddy as soon as he stops being so busy with work this morning.

This past week has been fairly uneventful with you. I’m starting to feel actually pregnant already, which is a big change compared to last time. I know they say you get bigger with each pregnancy, but I did not expect to feel this big already! But I don’t remember when I started to not be able to do up my pants last year haha. I still can do them up now, but they are getting uncomfortable. I would guess just a couple more weeks and we’ll be using a hair tie. It’s starting to get warm outside anyway, so forget pants and bring on the skirts! I haven’t been quite as nauseous this week as I have in the past, but there have just been a couple times. A little bit Monday morning and a little bit last night, but that was my own fault, the popcorn was so good! No major cravings, but I only want to eat sweet things. When I start eating vegetables, I actually start feeling sick for the first few bites until I get used to it. I just think that the bland food doesn’t make my stomach quite as happy as other things do.

Sleep is still not going too well. I don’t ever feel like I need a nap in the afternoon, and I can fall asleep super quickly at night, but once I wake up to go to the bathroom around two or three, I’m just off and on until the alarm goes off. Hopefully as we get further into the second trimester, my bladder will slow down a bit and let me sleep through the night for once.

Speaking of that….SECOND TRIMESTER!!! Today puts me at thirteen weeks, which means we are about into the second trimester, and my fear of losing you can decrease a little. It won’t go away entirely, but it might get better. I try and tell myself that we lost Carter due to a cord accident at the very very end, so the chances of anything happening to you are very slim, but I still worry. I’m your mom, it’s what I’m supposed to do. You’ll thank me for it someday.

One conversation I’ve been having with your dad a lot this last week is about what kind of parent I’m supposed to be. And I don’t mean like how I will raise you, but I’ve been wondering a lot if I’m just meant to be a mom to angel babies. I hope with all my heart we don’t lose you too, but what if we do? I don’t know that I could just stop trying to have my own kids, because we know that I can carry a baby full term, but how many could I lose before giving up? Infinity, I think. And I mean that sincerely. I would keep trying and trying until I couldn’t try anymore because I want nothing more to be a mom. But it sure would suck to be a mom to four and not have any little feet running around.

Keep me hopeful, little bean. You and your siblings kept me alive after we lost Carter, and I know they are all up there looking out for me and your dad right now. So you just be safe in there. Grow like you know how, and I’ll keep eating these stupid vegetables just for you. Love you!

How far along? : THIRTEEN WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Baby is the size of: a lemon!
Total weight gain/loss: Not sure, but I don’t like pants anymore haha.
Sleep: I sleep really well from about ten to two, and from two until five I don’t sleep well at all. I’m tired until about lunch time, but don’t feel the need for a nap in the afternoon, which is nice. I just want to feel rested! Come on second trimester!
Best moment this week: I’m really look forward to the blood draw this afternoon. Seven to fourteen days until we know whether you are a boy or girl!!
Movement: I don’t think so.
Symptoms: BLOATED.
Food cravings: Not vegetables
Food aversions: Tomato sauce still, and anything that has kind of a strong, instant smell. Like the fridge. Also, vegetables don’t make me happy, but I eat them anyway!
What I miss: Being naive and not angry, and Carter.
What I am looking forward to: SEVEN TO FOURTEEN DAYS!!!!

 
 
 
 
 
 

Whew!!

I'm not exactly sure what happened, but about a month ago, our subscriber emails stopped working. Unfortunately, we didn't catch it until today (thanks to an email from my grandma). But I think we got it figured out, and we're back up and running! When I ran the validation today, it gave me an error on one of my posts, that stopped the RSS feed, therefore breaking the ability to send out the emails. I've learned a lot of techy things in the last three hours haha. But we're back! And hopefully you still love us even though you haven't been getting the email updates. 

Another friend for Carter

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This weekend was super nice, and very much needed after the busy month we've had so far. An hour after we got home from Boise last weekend, Brandon had to turn around and leave for Vegas for work. He got home Wednesday night and for the rest of the week/weekend we had really big plans to do absolutely nothing. Thursday afternoon we laid in bed and finished Big Little Lies (well, I finished it, Brandon napped). Friday was somehow relaxing and productive all at the same time. We got our Utah drivers licenses (which you're supposed to do before 60 days of living here but I feigned ignorance and held onto my Idaho license as long as I could!) and saw Spiderman that night. On the drive home from the movie, we saw a little rainbow in between the mountains on the east side of the valley. We ran home to grab our new camera, but by the time we got back outside, the rainbow had kind of started to spread and disappear, but we snapped a few pictures anyway. Then we drove back down the street to take some pictures of this lone sunflower on the side of the road. I know all this is kind of unnecessary to tell you, but having that time with Brandon to appreciate the little things made for a really nice evening!

It had been three weeks since the last time we were able to go see the babies, so we were pretty excited to get up to Logan on Saturday. We took them some Mickey-shaped crazy straws, a Disney keychain, and a little Hogwarts Express train. Brandon also bought them each a poker chip while he was in Vegas, so we left those too. When it comes to Disney, I almost feel like we spend more money on them than we would if they were there with us, and I love it. We bought them each a stuffed animal from Disney World too, but those are at home in the nursery. It was nice to spend some time at the cemetery, rearranging their toys, cleaning off the headstone, and giving them their new little trinkets. We took home the souvenirs from Amsterdam, and the Disney things will stay until our next trip (which, let's be honest, will probably be Disney again).

Brandon always makes an extra effort to pick up anything that has fallen over on any of the other headstones, and in doing so, we realized that there has been another little baby buried near Carter. When the first few babies after Carter was buried in front of him, we left each family a journal, and a note with our story and contact info on it. I leave the contact info, because I remember how alone we felt in the hospital, and I want to make sure these families have some sort of support, even if it's just a random stranger who knows some of what they are going through. There was one family I didn't leave a journal for, but we ended up meeting them at the cemetery on the day we spread Little Bean's ashes, and even though I am so grateful for the timing of it, have always felt bad that I didn't leave one for them. Brandon asked me on Saturday if I wanted to leave one for this new family, and at first I kind of declined. It had been a rough week, and I wasn't sure if I was up to writing our story down again, but in the end, I decided to do it, and am so glad I did.

The mom texted me last night, and my heart has been aching for her all day. Everyone's loss story is different, but it's hard not to feel at least some of what the parents are going through. I reach out to these women because I don't want them to think they are the only ones who have experienced a loss. I am so grateful to be in the company of strong parents that honor their children, and am so thankful for the support they have given Brandon and me, but most of the time I really wish we were the only ones. It breaks my heart to see and hear these other women suffering and feeling similar to how I felt. I know only a little of the pain, anger, and devastation they feel, and I wish I could take it from them. Losing a baby, especially so close to a due date, is not something I would wish on my very worst enemy. It is the only tremendous loss I know, but if losing Carter and now Little Bean could save everyone else from having to experience it, then I would gladly shoulder that burden.

It gives me a sense of peace to think about Carter and Little Bean, wherever they are, doing great things with other angel babies. I appreciate the parents who have unwillingly made this sacrifice since we lost Carter in October, but if the forces in the world care at all, I think Carter has enough friends for now.

I wrote a post a while back about how to help a grieving parent, and I would like to add to it here. If you know of someone who has experienced a loss, please let them know they aren't alone. I've had a few people tell me my blog has helped them, or that they planned to pass it along to someone they know. My blog is just one of so so many resources available to parents who have lost a child. There are blogs, support groups, counselors, websites, Facebook groups...so many resources for a part of life that we shouldn't be experiencing. Please pass them along.

 

Hi Little Bean: April 26, 2017

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April 26, 2017

Hi little bean! I always want to call you little babe, but that’s what we called Carter, and I don’t think I can use that term with you. Sorry. Still love you, but sorry.

Today marks the end of the twelfth week of pregnancy! I still can’t believe it, and I kind of can’t believe that we are that far along either. It’s so crazy that essentially, we are already a third of the way through this pregnancy, since you’ll be joining us early. I know we’ve only known about you for seven weeks, but it has gone so fast. And really, we only have 3 ½ more seven week periods. It’s a weird way to think about things, but it works.

The past five days have been better than Tuesday last week, but still kind of hard. We went to Logan on Saturday and saw your brother, and I don’t think I’ve ever missed him as much as I did that day. I want to have two kids at home, I don’t even care if you two were both at home and barely a year apart, I want that. It just doesn’t seem fair.

Yesterday was kind of a crappy day, and I’m super ready for these hormones to level out. I had some pretty severe anxiety first thing in the morning, so I ended up staying home in my pj’s all day with your dad. It wasn’t anxiety about you, I know you are good and healthy, just general anxiety. It was pretty bad. So we stayed home and spent some quality time with you and Carter bear and the kitties, and each other. Your daddy is such a good man, I’m so happy you get to have him in your life.

We’re starting to get really excited to find out whether you are a little boy or girl! We’ll do the blood draw a week from today, and then find out your gender in three weeks. I don’t really have a distinct feeling right now, but with everything that happened after we lost Carter, I would like to say you are a girl. But again, I don’t really have a feeling one way or another, so I’m curious to see. I don’t know if I’ve written about it before, but I think I would prefer that you are a girl. Honestly, I will just be happy to bring you home no matter what you are, but it would be really nice to pack away the boy things for a while, and start kind of fresh. We’ll still use the crib and the dresser and the recliner regardless, but I’d like to get all new clothes, all new decorations, and not feel like I  have to use the boy things. Your dad says we can start completely over, get a new crib and everything, but I don’t want to just waste money. I know he’ll be okay doing whatever we need to do to make the process smoother though, which is so nice.

You have been considerably different than your brother so far, at least as far as I can remember. I haven’t been sleeping well, and never feel well-rested. But I also don’t feel as tired in the afternoons as I did with Carter. I actually don’t feel any more tired than usual, I just wish I could sleep better! The nausea has been different this round too. I get sick more in the afternoons from about 3 until 8, and food doesn’t really seem to help as much as it did before. My cravings have been way different. All I want is chocolate or bread (or both together, which is great). I don’t want to eat any fruit or anything sour or tart, it kills me. I had a lemonade from chick-fil-a on saturday and it about killed me. I also still like ice cream, which is extremely important. I remember last year when we went to Disneyland while I was pregnant with Carter, I barely wanted a Mickey ice cream then, which is a big deal! I want all the ice cream though. All the ice cream and all the brownies. And, I still want to eat Zupas. Last year I couldn’t eat it at all after I found I was pregnant, which is funny because that’s all I wanted to eat before we found out. One thing that is consistent though is spaghetti sauce. Love pizza, can’t stand spaghetti sauce. We made some tomato basil chicken thing in the crock pot last night, and I seriously almost threw up when dad was putting it in a container. He’s such a champion. Sometimes I feel like maybe he thinks I fake the sickness to get out of doing things, but he never complains. I really don’t just fake the sickness, but it’s still nice of him to not even think that. But basically anything I smell that is really strong makes me feel sick. The tomato sauce is just funny to me, because last year I couldn’t handle it either. I remember being at Olive Garden one time and just dying because the person next to us ordered something with tomato sauce. Too funny!

So with this testing that the doctor wants us to do, we will get a look at your chromosomes to make sure that they look good and normal too. Surprisingly, I’m not really worried about that. I probably shouldn’t get too confident about it, but I just feel like you are healthy and fine. And I’d like to think that we’ve suffered enough the past six months, so nothing more could happen, but I know that’s not true. Aside from the anxiety that I can’t control, I’m just trying to stay positive. It’s not hard, because I love knowing that you are in there, but I want to create the best environment for you. And I swear I’ll start eating more fruits and veggies….sometime.

We love you, and next time we see you, we might know what your gender is! Stay safe, little bean!

How far along? : TWELVE WEEKS!!!!
Baby is the size of: a plum!!
Total weight gain/loss: Mmmm...it’s like three or four pounds now haha. My pants are already starting to get tight.
Sleep: I feel like I’m sleeping hard, but I still wake up so exhausted. And I wake up a lot of times in the night to pee. So it’s not great, but I’m also not exhausted in the afternoons, which is super nice.
Best moment this week: It was definitely at the ultrasound last week, and then being able to tell our parents that we’ll find out the gender in just a few weeks! Also taking you to visit your brother. I can tell that you two have a strong connection, I can already feel his love for you.
Movement: It might have just been food, but I swear I was feeling a little fluttering last night.
Symptoms: nausea, fatigue
Food cravings: Nothing really. Almond milk has sounded really good, but I have yet to buy any. Maybe today.
Food aversions: Tomato sauce, as of yesterday. Looks like no spaghetti or lasagna for me. Again.
What I miss: Carter.
What I am looking forward to: getting my blood drawn next week, as strange as that sounds.

A quick weekend in Boise.

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I had a whole nice post typed up, and then the page crashed and I'm too lazy to type it all again, so here's the quick version:

We went to Boise for the weekend and really had a great time! We went to a wedding for one of my cheer babies (really. I was getting so emotional seeing her all grown up, even though she's only a year younger than I am), drove by our old house (which we miss a ton, turns out), and went to a baby shower on Saturday. The guys went shooting while us girls went to the shower, but stopped by toward the end. We did a big family dinner that night with all 12 of us that were there (parents, me & Brandon, brothers & s.o.'s, grandma, aunt, cousin & her husband. Later that night we played Bean Bazzled, a risky jelly bean game where one color could have one of two flavors. Good flavors include lime, tutti frutti, pear, caramel corn, and others, while bad flavors were stinky socks, dog food, spoiled milk, rotten eggs, vomit, booger and a few others. It was the worst, but it was some good family bonding time! Then Brandon and I had even more bonding time when we were stuck on the freeway coming home on Sunday due to a rollover. But really I just wanted to share these pictures, because I'm feeling really grateful for my family, and also because they are a good looking bunch. You're welcome.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

And Brandon looking like a model while we wait for traffic to move.